i make sense.

i’m learning:
—sometimes we just can’t find words. my creative writing is sleeping. i am okay with that. real life is too dizzying right now. my stories will be back. they’re never gone too long.
— life happens much faster than i expected.
—to trust. to stop the snow flurries of worry about future jobs/residence/timing and rest in God. be still and know that i am God. God has opened and held the door (like a gentleman) for every step of my life so far. nothing’s changing here.
—to wait. to be thankful for may fifteenth and the ones before. to smile happily because i am.
—that distance is a matter of the heart, not the head. the head, the heart/the head, the heart.

i’m listening to:
—animal collective.
—c.w. playlists.
—lua, by bright eyes and gillian welch (over and over again).
—the andrews sisters.
—under a honeymoon, by the good life (also over and over).

i’m thankful for:
—google video chat.
—text messaging.
—free time, a set of blank parentheses in order to recover from junior year/prepare for alaska/conquer long distance.
—my mom.

i’m reading:
—lolita.
—the paris review anthology
—and this:

HEAT
a mechanism:
where flames the necessary power to raise your temperature (excitement)
a relationship of equal ratchets to exponent tremors    (mass)
a convalescence of whorls        to the edge of the fire, an immolent (by degrees)
conversion: call these marshmallows        that flare so brief & singe shorthairs (prostrate)
as salty water washes in;
& melt like the witch in a puddle of functions which (engine)
—geneva chao