i could wait around for the dust to still.

i like driving at night, in general. sometimes i need to drive back roads, some place where it’s just headlights slicing through the unknown. for that reason, i’m pretty sure i’ve driven every back road in anderson. i like the process and idea of getting lost for a few hours. unfortunately, i’ve been on too many middle of the night drives with too many people. i know where i am now.

anyways, on other nights, i need to drive slowly along roads with houses and suburban life. i love to see houses lit up at night. i like the people who leave their blinds open, by accident, or maybe just because they are happy enough to let their life spill into the street with the light. it’s always interesting to me those brief snatches of someone else’s life.

for some reason, the idea of starting a brand new life with someone that entails setting up a house and making  a home and learning to live forever with the same person seems easier to me than the terrifying career/apartment/life search. no wonder girls get married so quick. i think maybe i am just scared because the past two years of my life have been pretty spectacular and they’ve disappeared. i want to hold onto the next two for a good, long while, and i know i can’t.